The second mistake involved a lack of prayer. As I was preparing to leave for the church it dawned on me that I had not prayed for the congregation or myself. The Holy Spirit gave me another nudge that caused a case of spiritual anxiety. I feared, in my spirit, what would happen if God did not show up. What if God gave me what I prayed? (nothing) That scared me!
After making these two critical mistakes I spent a few minutes repenting and seeking the face of God. In this whole process the Holy Spirit had encouraged me to change my sermon topic and to change my heart before fulfilling my appointed assignment. My message was well received and the experience was positive. However, I had to see my blind side.
This experience reminded me that ministers are often blind to their pride. What does it look like?
- There is the pride of making decisions without consulting the Holy Spirit.
- There is the pride of planning activities without seeking God’s direction
- There is the pride of feeling self- sufficient without seeking God’s help.
- There is the pride of feeling ministerial superiority. It is possible for a minister to feel as if he is the only servant who hears God’s voice.
- There is the pride of the condescending attitude. We can see ourselves, because of our calling, as having an edge on other members of the Body of Christ.
- There is the pride of arrogant leadership. We can portray the attitude that we are always right.
The frightening thing about ministerial pride is that we can be blind to this side of our nature. In the testimony I shared above, there was a short period of time when I did not see the error of my ways. In churches, conflict often runs rampant because ministers and/or churches are blinded by pride. Pride can be defeated but it is a mouthful to swallow!